Its not the days that are gone, scares me

Nothing can be altered there
I wish or not
Nothing can be rearranged
No matter what
Its all done 
Its not the days yet to come, scares me
There still is hope
Where dreams lead the way
And wishes becomes desires
All is not lost
Its not over when dream is alive
It scares me, the moments fleeing right now
Perhaps these are the days I want forever
What if this is the destiny and nothing beyond this is real
What if I miss today, someday
And here my heart goes heavy 
And yet nothing will stop these moments
And I can’t help but think “living is conflicting”
And now I am lost!