Void Thoughts

What is my creative routine? The question left me stunned—I didn’t have an answer. I realized I don’t have a creative routine at all. How is that fair?
My creativity—whether it’s writing poetry or drawing doodles—emerges from my scattered brain and its knack for noticing things I normally overlook.
But lately, my brain is too scattered to notice anything, let alone spark any kind of creativity. I feel lost somewhere, though even I’m not sure where. I’m drifting aimlessly, from somewhere to nowhere. My mind is in overdrive—overstimulated, overstretched, overwhelmed—yet I feel it’s underused. I sense I’m not living up to my potential. I love so many things about myself, yet in this state, I struggle to find anything lovable at all.
It’s astonishing how a ten-minute art video made me pause and reflect on all of this. It started with a simple question: What is my creative routine? Unable to answer it—or even come up with an excuse—my mind dove into the depths of my troubles. The goals I set but never pursued, the dreams I secretly long for but keep postponing because “now is not the time”—everything surfaced, demanding to be acknowledged, to be held, to be cared for.
So, I decided to take a deep breath and answer the question that had me stuck.
What is my creative routine?
Twenty minutes of writing, followed by twenty minutes of drawing. I would like to say that I’ll share my creative explorations on my blog or Instagram, but I hesitate. Yet, maybe this hesitation is the very reason I should commit. Because I often listen to that hesitation, letting it keep me from creating, from committing.
And so, here I am, promising myself to upload a piece of artwork or a snippet of writing.
Will twenty minutes be enough to overcome perfectionism and procrastination? I guess I’ll find out soon enough.