At this moment, I am feeling lazy. Actually, I feel more tired than lazy. It’s 2:30 in the afternoon, and my eyes are tired. Mind, too.
I haven’t written anything in more than a week. Although I have a valid reason for not writing, I feel like I am making excuses. We went on a wonderful trip to Seattle last week and got back only last night.
I had decided to take a break from blogging during the trip. However, I always feel like I am making excuses when I don’t write, which makes my breaks unenjoyable.
I have lots to share, from the trip and in general. But as usual, I feel like a stranger when I return to this space after a gap.
I feel uncertain.
Will what I have to say still make sense here? The gap might be narrow, but I feel like ages have passed, like I am an alien here.
Or was this my inner feeling always—pulling me away from the rest of the world, forcing me to keep myself to myself? Was I always an alien occupying this planet?
Anyway, I decided to muster my courage and jot down my thoughts here. I hope this post will help me come back here tomorrow and write again.
So, how have you been?
This piece is written in response to the two hundredth and sixth edition of Fiction Monday inspired by the word prompt – LAZY hosted by yours truly. Do join in if you have a tale to tell.
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Void Thoughts 
I have been away from my dear blog for so long, I have started feeling guilty! A short break, though, is fine, Vinitha. You need it. We all need it to recharge our batteries and to fall in love with our blog, all over again. Your post reminds me to get back to writing on my blog all that I have been writing in my google docs. 🙂
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Yes, a short break is always needed. But I forget that when I do take a break. 🙄
I agree, get back to posting on your blog, Shilpa. It feels like its been ages since I read your blog. In fact, I visited yours a couple of days ago to check if you have published this week.
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Aww..that’s so sweet of you, Vinitha!! Actually, I have been working on my art so the writing has been off the blog. Now from August I plan on blogging once a week . Fingers crossed! ;P
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Awesome. Waiting to read your posts, Shilpa. ☺️
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So glad you actually wrote this post, Vinitha! Take it one day at a time dear!!
It is tough when we find the muse has gone and we struggle to write. I’ve been there myself and I know the feeling of not being able to string together even one single sentence. To come out of that and actually write a full post has been nothing short of miracle but I had to keep pushing myself through it, day after day. We all feel guilty to take breaks but I think these breaks are necessary too. Just don’t feel guilty. Whatever you write on the blog is always good because it is your thoughts you are sharing.
I’m so chuffed that so many of us are struggling through our inability to write and yet, we are not giving up on ourselves. Super proud that each one of us is pushing our boundaries…keep up the writing as and when you can, Vinitha!
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It was our travel plans that forced me to take a break from writing, Esha. What can I say, I find it impossible to stay away from my blog. I might repeat on my rants on writing and blogging, but I feel like my soul is forever wandering in the blogland. 😂
It’s good to see you back in the blogging world, Esha. 😊
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You know what, I too just came from a vacation and even though I want to start writing, the sheer amount of editing and preparation i have to do for a blogpost is kinda making me procrastinate. I am waiting to be in that mental space where I feel the joy of sharing my experience. I hope it comes soon.
It is ok to take breaks in between. Make some space in our head for new thoughts.
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I know that feeling where you write but hesitate to do the polishing and other blogging related work that’s needed to publish a post, Raj.
Yes, breaks are important. I am good at making myself feel guilty for unnecessary things. Something to take care of in my character.
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Ah! I understand this feeling too. Even as we plan a break in August, I’m wondering about how I’ll do my posts! I’ve decided to take a notebook to jot down thoughts – that’s all. No posting on the blogs. Not sure why we feel so guilty though!
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Right? Why do we feel guilty for taking a break? I am glad that it’s not just me. 🙂
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Vinitha – take a break without feeling guilty. Our thoughts will remain in place for another day, trust me. I’ve been going through a period of self-doubt and uncertainty and have only begun to come out of it. The idea is to not force anything.
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You are right, Soumya. Not forcing is the key. I am working on not feeling guilty for the short breaks that I take. Thank you for stopping by, Soumya.
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